i dunno why . but i still cant let go . its been 3mths and 16days . but then why am i still not over her? why am i still missing her? why is it no matter where i go or what i do, i still see her shadow all over the place,every corner? im so suprise im not d person i always tot i am . i always think i would never be in this place . where it hurts so much feeling lost becoz of sum1, becoz of d memories . i tot i would never get hurt and always b on top of d game, since so much calculation n preparation has been made . wat should i do n how should i play d game . but then i feel like even with so much plans n tactics has been prepared . but all of a sudden, im here, d place im not suppose to be .
one side of me is telling me i need to move on, on the otherside i wanna break down n cry . i guess i really need to let it burn …
i know ppl do say ‘if u love sum1, let her go, if shes happy, u would b happy too’ .. but is dat true? or is it false hope for ppl like me to comfort themselves during d moment of pain n lost? im trying to force myself to follow n blif that theory, but it doesnt seem to work rite now , cz i have doubts in it . is that wat losers say when they cant win in d game of love?
it is nature for all of us to go on our own paths n write our own stories in life , but then now . i feel kinda sad leaving everything . the memories i once had . for a chance to start a new life . that has been wat i wanted all along . n why, its here now . i feel abit of sadness arising from within . less then a month to go . n i can finally leave every memory, every sadness, happiness, everything behind n start to build a new path in my life, to write a new chapter . but then at d same time im scared that these memories will b with me till d end . of coz it will, but i do hope i can contain it in a small box deep inside my heart . cz as i think wat i am . i am strong . i am cold . i can do without memories n stories of my past . .. that is wat i think . but im startin to have doubts on myself n my blifs .