gradually adapting to life i guess . lookin at the pic ah siaw posted today, it brought back so many memories . those memories that are buried down n deep inside . inside d pic half of 18 ppl are not in kuching at d moment . all went diffrent routes n are writing their own stories, not exactly as wat i felt n plan when i took the pic . never expect all this to happen in my life . ah soon, u ask me to look in ur eyes and honestly tell u im happy . thats a tough one . wat is happiness? is it d feeling of completion when u have everything? most ppl in this world .. their whole lifetime . they cant have all they wanted . the ppl they want to b by theirside , the things they long for . most ppl just aint that lucky . adapting to life . its friday night 9.30pm, and im abt to change into my pjs . theres no one to look for . after high skool i kinda had my total freedom to do anything i want, to go anywhere i want, anytime i want . but right now . its like its all reverse to d time when i had nothing . even when i look at d mirror i see someone pathetic that chose a route without gatherin more info b4 heading on to it . but i guess im here . wat can i say . i cant go back . n yet its so hard to go forth .. 5mths n 3days since i step foot on the city of angels . its not a walk in a park ..a friend of mine steven asked me not to give up hope n look for my own paradise here, or at least to build one here ..think abt it .. in the end of this journey ur standing there on d edge by urself …no one is gonna tag along with u n share all d moments all d way .. sad .. kore ne, jinsei .. such is life ..

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  1. Well think about it then.If you have a goal,you can see what you wanna grab hold to in the future,such as you really wanna have good education in the US,stay in LA.If coming back to Kuching is what makes you happy and content,and you’ve got nothing to lose,come back to Kuching.I’m not trying to break your faith into makin it in LA,but no one else knows what you want most except for you yourself..However, once you chose a path,make sure there’s no regrets and go all the way.
    No worries,whatever you choose to do with your life,I’ll be here to support you all the way.You’ve got the options,now make a choice..:)

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  2. That’s how it is in a new land when you have no close family or friends to chill out with, no place to go out to. But be strong, have faith and believe in your goals…make one. And strive towards it. Don’t give up! Gambatte yo! =)

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  3. I agree with what your friend said. Since you have gotten to whereever you are now, you can build your own paradise from there. *hugz* Don’t be sad… life is all about learning and experiences. Live and be happy and have no regrets when you look back some day.

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  4. hang in there marvin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   dun give up…and plus LA ain’t that bad….i know ish tough to get situated here but i know u’ll find ur way soon^__________________________________________^      i’m starting to freak out cuz i’m moving to a city that i KNOW NO ONE watsoever..i know it can;t be compared..but still ish scary!

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  6. Gambatte~ Hav faith in urself ne.. Trust urself, that u can do it. Look forward, into the future. Don’t look back, n never compare the past wif future. U never know what will happen in de future. Perhaps, future might be better than the past, but if u keep looking back, n never treasure wat u have now, u’ll never know what u hav, or gonna hav is way better. Perhaps, not better, but it’s definitely not any “badder”.

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  8. Happiness is different for everyone. It depends on how they defined happiness. =) Ur a strong guy with great hope n strong faith. Stay the way u are. Change for the better. Adapt to what is laid for u. Be content n satisfied. U’ll soon find ur own paradise there. Dun regret but rather look forward for it. Life isn’t that bad. But no matter what, if u reli think that Kuching is beta n u’ll feel more comfortable n happy here, it wun be a bad choice to cum back. As long as ur VERY sure n u wun regret. =)
    God bless! n stay strong.

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  9. i dun care whether u choose to stay in LA, to come back kch or wherever it is… u’ll just hafta come back some time in the future(but not too long). Things are so different after u left , mere words couldn’t explain. And vin!!!!!!!!!! Go dl DJ Tiesto – Live at Disneyland(2005), u’ll like it.

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  11. Have faith in yourself…If you feel that you can make it in LA, then follow what your friend said, build your paradise there. If you think that you’ll be more contented and satisfied back here in Kuching then come back. The decisions are in your hands.. Whatever it is, be strong. There’s more to what life has to give. It doesn’t matter if you did not gather more information before heading there. What matters is now that you know what’s wrong, solve the problem and improve whatever that’s weak. Gosh… This song really suits the post!

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  12. Since you already “put me on the table”, I guess I have to say something… I said find or build a paradise.. But first of all, What is Paradise? Everyone has their own definition, To me, Paradise is a state of mind, Paradise can be anywhere, Paradise can be when i play ball, when i killer-cross over a tall black dude… Or sometimes, Paradise can be at home doing nothing but fliping channels on TV, It can be singing my favourite song in Karaoke, executing a perfect spike when i play V-ball, could be when i go to bank with my paycheck in my hand.. All i am saying is there are many good stuff life can offer, but if you keep comparing what should have to what you are having, you’ll be missing out all the fun.. Life is process, just enjoy the ride, whereever it takes you.

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  15. i guess home is always home and best friends will stay that way no matter what. but what i realised is that we are getting older by the day and most friends will have their own life unlike before where everyone parties together, get drunk, get insane. the day will come when we will be left alone with our partner. hmm.. dont think i make that much sense.

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  16. wow kind of lost with ur entry…but i guess im in the middle but u should just (hehe sorry im having a brain fart)look toward ur future and make the best of it…ur not pathetic…if u are playing incomplete while u wrote ur entry it makes u sad…well it makes me sad….^_^ u should go out there and have fun…PARTY and stop thinking about things

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  17. vin,i heard tis from a freen of mine..”do watcha u wanna do,go wherevea u wanna go,coz u only to live in…..”is it a good one…?i dun think so…i want to be like that too but i jz cant….hope it applies on u….

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  18. I think it’s cause you miss your friends in Kuching so much that you refuse to accept or try to make an effort to adapt and open up to people who might have a chance in being close friends there… give it a shot. It’s a once in a lifetime opportunity to be where you’re at. Home will still be here waiting for you when you decide to come home. Life is out there. You’re out on an adventure, not by force but by choice. Make full use of the choice you made. You don’t want to be looking back someday regretting and asking yourself why you didn’t make full use of the time you have now to seek new things, and just enjoy a different lifestyle.

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  19. Greatness of soul consists not so much in soaring high and in pressing forward, as in knowing how to adapt and limit oneself – MONTAIGNE.
    A human being’s first responsibility is to shake hands with himself.

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