in life i guess we all cant have wat we want, can we? if we could, there would b no meaning for d word cherish, appreciate, effort . but wat is d true answer, why are we all at d place we are at , and wat are we striving for? then again, in order to gain something, we have to lose something, isnt it that the rule? but then again, i guess sitting at home on a weekend night always makes me think of stuff like this, esp home sweet home n those wonderful ppl iv met along d way in kuching . at d current moment , i have none of both , i cant enjoy d warmth of my house in kenyalang , i cant drive my not fast but lovely car that im proud of, cant b with my wonderful friends, spending time with them . yet iv given up all that to come here to look for something that iv lost . d feeling of being alive . in order to acheive that, i thought a new place would b d answer and might as well make something of myself . 6months and 1 day iv been here in the city of angels . d beach n d ballers, that is d most important part of LA to me, it keeps me going . i dun really feel down or sad, iv adapted to d life here . weekdays n weekends doesnt make any diffrence to me, iv lost the feeling of gettin hype on friday mornings where ill know its gonna b a wonderful weekend ahead , friends calling me up, going drinkin, having lunch n dinner, ballin hard . it all suddenly turn grey right now . theres no more energy flowing thru me . everyday is d same as any other day . have no friends, none . friends are really those type of ppl i had back home, no money, no hot chic with me so ppl will stare . even today, when i was at d beach. it was overcrowded, too many ppl to really play a nice game of 3on3s . d feeling of being in a pool of ppl yet feeling alone . standing there with the wind in my face listenin to d waves . pathetic n sad to see myself like this , never tot it would come down to this stage in my life . i wish i could have other things better to do then sitting here online lookin at d monitor . lookin at myself, feel sorry for myself , wat have i done to myself? wat have i got myself into? well, then again i guess ithe only thing i can do or to comfort myself n hide from reality is to wait .. wait for d big break n change …

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  1. Well..remember what I told u before yea…I believe you can pull through…ppl always miss everything when they dont have it anymore…so cherish the moments u have in LA now..
    …close your eyes,listen and feel…
    ^^ Take k yea..

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  2. hehe yea i heard about that..i might come down for it ^_^ AWH I LOVE UR SONG!!! its so pretty i remember tis song from back then..well ttyl and take carez byee!

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  3. That sounds like me a few years back. Change does it to you, you know. Remember your friends and remember that you can make the difference. *hugz*

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  4. Don’t ever regrets on your own decision. Once you decided, don’t get influenced by others. If you feel it is right, then do it. Don’t worry! your kuching friends and me will definitely remember you! Whenever you free, just come back to kuching or kl here! Find us! We will sure treat you as nice as we can. Ramen hahaha! ^^ 

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  5. Hey my mom said thank you. Ur so cute! Ya, we cant have everything…we gotta work for it…but some things in life were not meant to have…but never loose faith/hope. Seems like ur living a relaxing life. So do u go to school? I live in Orange County. Where in LA do u live? Well, hopefully one day all ur dreams will come to fruition. Good luck. Keep in touch. later!
    //Pola

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  6. land of headhunters vs. land of angels…..
    no matter wut,jz live ur life hard….dream wut u wanna dream..do wut u wanna do….coz we onli haf one life to live in…even we know tis reality world is cruel….fucking cruel…!!! so y jz dun do watchw u wanna do….?

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  7. Wow… The song…I sense nostalgia here. You’ll do fine over there. Sometimes people have certain aims as motivation. Some of my friends anticipate the day they get to come back from overseas. It helps them to move on in life with strength. Yes, you’ll always miss things that are enjoyable. Things that have good memories. But think of it this way, not everyone have such great memories right? Whatever you do in LA, it’ll be an experience to learn from. Be strong.

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  8. Greatness of soul consists not so much in soaring high and in pressing forward, as in knowing how to adopt and limit oneself.
    “We live in a wonderful world that is full of beauty, charm and adventure.  There is no end to the adventures that we can have if only we seek them with our eyes open – NEHRU

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  9. Find someone to share things wid as a way to alleviating it.  Be strong hope things will be fine for you do look at the bright side of things. Take care.

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  10. Wat’s the song title? sooooo sentimental… share with me.. my nick @yahoo.com…
    Dude, have faith on searching what you want… never give up!~ One day you will find it.. All de best and God bless u… Gamabteh!~ ^_*

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  11. Hey Marvin dear! How ya feeling? How r things goin? anything special going on in ur life right now? Whatcha doin this weekend? U should update Marvin! Wanna know more bout u! Hope everythings going well! Take care! later~//Pola

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  12. As’s a tale, so is life: not how long it is but low good it is, is what matters.

    “Let you life lightly dance on the edges of time like dew on the tip of a leaf.” – TAGORE

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  13. i’ve been here so long that i consider here my home now, as oppose to my parents. i went back august of last summer. man i miss southeast asia. sniff sniff.

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